Falling deeply not softly

Into the black hole 

we have fallen

Feeling our bodies disintegrate 

into molecules so small.

It has sucked all meaning 

which we so place in life.

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The pouring rain

falls onto the 

exterior of our skins

It travels down each body,

the sensation is felt in our veins.

And single droplets

soothe each aching soul

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illusion

~staring blankly at the piece of paper

which has been laying in front of me.

Words have been escaping and

all i see is faded letters,

dancing around in my mind~

 

~the emotions within

have been fighting to break out

however, not even one sentence could be formed~

 

~illusions of happiness,

of days filled with laughter

but all i see and feel is

the melancholy of the terrible routine

of one day leading to another~

 

~hearing my heart beat

moving with every thought

that fill my brain.

Thoughts which are fighting to emerge~

 

~there are no dreams at night,

 just pitch darkness and shadows

pounding on my mind~

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Isolated

A soul,

shattered, broken

and isolated.

Weeping for all its

great unknowns.

 

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A body,

emptied from all

of its emotions.

Every one

dropped into the sea.

 

A human,

who is tired of

being hit and gutted.

Conflicted

and convoluted.

 

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A person,

who is lying down

trying to sleep.

But her anxiety

keeps snatching her.

 

A home,

which was turned

into a pitch of

sadness.

And nothing to look

forward to.

 

Shadow

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Something crept silently

behind me.

It filled me with its

invisible leaves,

and  its unseen trunk.

It lingered there peacefully,

and did not require sounds.

Facing me there,

an unmoved shadow.

Nothing else stirred,

apart from the waves

of the sun.

It was patient,

waiting for me to dive

into my world of imagination.

 

The leaves started seeping

into my blood vessels,

and I felt them

darken every corner 

of my vernacular system.

My breaths were getting 

slow and heavy,

and my vision blurry.

 

Current

a wave current

curling into the other

and a flow is created

 

echoes are heard

rambling through

the empty silent sky

 

all that is lost

has been washed

and sent away with the foam

 

seconds turn into

minutes and minutes

become hours and none has come back.

who am i?

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who am i really?

beneath all the fake smiles

and the exterior beauty

what is my being made up of?

is it love? 

art, music, poetry?

are they just mere imaginations?

is everything escaping 

through my fingertips?

am i losing it all?

where is the faith

the hope

are they all curling away?

what is this person 

if her insides are corroding?

and all is left is thoughts

roaming through an empty mind

One nickel

One nickel for just sitting passively there besides me

Two pennies for putting me out of your life

Three bucks for all the lies that betrayed my trust

Four euros for leaving me alone when i needed u the most

Six hundred yen for forgetting my existence

Seven thousand dollars for your pretending

Eight hundred thousand pounds for never asking about me

Nine million peso for not looking beyond my weaknesses

Ten thousand million dirhams for your egoistic narcissism which will burn you down.