illusion

~staring blankly at the piece of paper

which has been laying in front of me.

Words have been escaping and

all i see is faded letters,

dancing around in my mind~

 

~the emotions within

have been fighting to break out

however, not even one sentence could be formed~

 

~illusions of happiness,

of days filled with laughter

but all i see and feel is

the melancholy of the terrible routine

of one day leading to another~

 

~hearing my heart beat

moving with every thought

that fill my brain.

Thoughts which are fighting to emerge~

 

~there are no dreams at night,

 just pitch darkness and shadows

pounding on my mind~

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One nickel

One nickel for just sitting passively there besides me

Two pennies for putting me out of your life

Three bucks for all the lies that betrayed my trust

Four euros for leaving me alone when i needed u the most

Six hundred yen for forgetting my existence

Seven thousand dollars for your pretending

Eight hundred thousand pounds for never asking about me

Nine million peso for not looking beyond my weaknesses

Ten thousand million dirhams for your egoistic narcissism which will burn you down.